Tired But Happy

Since my last post, I am feeling more positive, thank goodness. Sometimes, life is just not sunshine and rainbows but it all works out in the end.

I am excited about something I got to do last night. I love Casting Crowns and have wanted to see them in concert for so long. Last night, my sister and I went to see The Afters, Sanctus Real and Casting Crowns at the Bridgestone Arena and it was wonderful. I know that Contemporary Christan music is an acquired taste but I love it. It was just so amazing to be with over 8,000 people singing about God. We had second row seats and it just felt incredible singing with all of those people. The artists seemed genuine and their testimonies were very moving. I have such a hard time understanding people who are not moved by music-any music, no matter what kind. Music just stirs my heart. The only negative was getting home at 1:00 AM and having to be at my graduate class at 8:30 AM this morning. Ouch! I am sleepy but it was worth it. I do love my graduate classes and am loving the discussion with my classmates.

I think I will get some rest now. Here is a picture from last night.




Enjoy the rest of your weekend. :)

It's An Autism Kind of Day

We have enjoyed some nice weather and celebrated Michael's 12th birthday. He is still doing well in school and my school is going ok so why am I in such a mood? I am thinking too much, I guess. When you have an autistic child, it is like being on a rollercoaster. You have ups and downs, celebrations and melt-downs. Today, after a conversation with a coworker, I just about cried-yes, literally. I hate to admit that I am jealous but God knows my heart and I am. I get so jealous of parents who get to go to a restaurant and eat or have a weekend alone. My husband and I have had ONE night alone in twelve years. We go out to eat aboout twice a year. I do get some "me" time when I walk around our neighborhood or get a manicure every once in a while. My poor husband doesn't get much, either. I guess the thing that cripples me sometimes it that I never see it ending. I am assuming that this will be our life until we die and that gets me sometimes. (No, I am not exaggerating. Until we die.) Oh, and that brings up my other middle-of-the-night nightmare: What happens when we die? Will someone help take care of him? Will some freaky person take advantage of him? Will he ever have a friend, someone who he can be close to? Yes, life could be worse, I know that. I have a son and husband who love me, a stable job and a comfortable home. My sister has helped some lately so that we could go to a concert and out to eat and that was really nice. I guess there might be a little light after all. I assume nobody reads this but in case somebody is reading this: Sorry to be negative. I know I have written similar things before but this blog is titled PDD-NOS Lifestyle and this is my life right now. Thankfully, tomorrow is another day.